So FINALLY!! My first blog!
But it aint sumin tat amuses me. Dad told me when i was young.."beta, mein tujhe engineer banaunga". The word sounded really cool in itself! N i thot so till 24th August 2007. My life soon changed after that. Literally. The assignments, the practicals, the attendance.... the SHIT. This was all gettin on my nerves. I dreamt of a luxuries life with a lotta smoke and booze. But things dont really go ur way, do they?
The tension was soo extreme that i wanted somethin to soothe me. N of course wats more soothin than a cigarette. Damn! I started smokin. After resistin it for over 2 years, i had to fuckin give in. But it is definitely somethin that takes my mind off the SHIT. Smokin at first is really glamourous. The 'smokers' would relate to this pretty easily. You Stand, Take it In, Blow it off. Wow! Watta feelin. Infact, i got so hooked on to it, i started smokin in public, near rail stations....wait, speakin of that, i got caught smokin outside da station !!. The police guard called me n started a lecture that never ended. " Beta, tum student hoo, tumhari life barbaad ho jayegi......zzz.....zzzz". The worst part was that i was still smokin wen he was throwin that shit!
Man. What was i turnin into?..What had engineering done to me?. Was I in my senses?. These questions ran through my head all night. I decided to quit smokin. I was damn serious about it and was committed to do da same.
But when i got up next mornin.....i forgot everythin n went down for a puff!
Damn!! Somethin u cant really control? Or maybe i jus dont want to quit?...wateva..who cares anyway?.
Apart from smokin, the major change that took place in me was that i didnt give a shit about anyone anymore. Previously, i really was a tad sensitive[or gay if u say so]. Now, i think noone gives a shit so y shud i?. Friends are friends in college, i dont give a shit wen i get back home. Thats how its supposed to be. A Mean world starin at you outside! trust me on that one.
Goin Down for a puff. Updatin soon . More shit cummin up!
Thursday, November 8, 2007
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